I find you when I fall apart.
The one silver lining, the amazing sparkly silver lining, when going through any sort of difficulty is the NEED to lean on my Maker. The NEED, physical NEED for Him, His word and the comfort that comes from reading His word, doesn't come to me only in times of complete distress. I don't have to be falling apart for anxious thoughts to invade my brain and turn a perfectly fine moment into a dark reality.
It's not the load
that breaks you down.
It's the way you carry it.
There are times when I am thoroughly enjoying a moment when my mind can wander and all of a sudden, a whole host of worries can come flooding into my mind. It is like a checklist of what can go wrong, what I need to get done, how fast my kids are growing up, etc. Yep, check one, two, three. And then I am anxious -- very anxious.
God is within her,
she will not fail.
The only way I can function during days of anxious thoughts is with His word by my side. The days when the only thing I can bring myself to do is cry -- pray and cry -- and open up my Bible and read. And He never fails me. When I open up His word, there are words I know that He is speaking directly to me.
He stilled the storm
to a whisper,
the waves of the sea
This morning was an anxious morning. The drive back from dropping off my kids at school was filled with lists of worry -- I think I got up to 15 different scenarios of how things can go wrong. So I ran to my Bible this morning, prayed and opened it up.
The Lord is your protection;
you have made God Most High
your place of safety.
Nothing bad will happen to you;
no disaster will come to your home.
He has put His angels in charge of you
to watch over you wherever you go.
They will catch you in their hands
so that you will not hit your foot on a rock.
Psalm 91:9-12 NCV
And thank you, Lord -- YOU never fail to let me know that You've got this. #blessedbydifficulties